I am, for once in a very very long time ,speechless...

Am i wrong to ask for a choice when it's just me feeling like crap no matter what?
- Personally it feels right but what about the other party?
- Is it ok to co-exist with the other party, even though he calls and texts her like almost,if not everyday?

I'm feeling freaking messed up right now...yesterday was 1 of the few times i actually teared...

Though i'm saving it all up for FO, but yesterday's talk with you was painfully sad...I don't wanna give up and lose you but somehow it's hard for me to maneuver in the position i'm in with regards to the other party...

Now i'm doubting myself, whether is it the right choice in asking u to choose between me or him...

Love is selfish, and guess i'm personifiying it fully right now...

But no matter what people tell me, i'm confused, emo and lost...

Coupled with 2 MAJOR project submissions on Monday and Thursday, this debacle has come at a wrong time for me....

I can't really concentrate, even if i have to with all my life....

I just feel so....._____________________________________

(Insert the applicable word for me please sph3r3-fans...coz' i'm lost)

But for starters, if it means anything..

1) I'm really really sorry i wasn't there for you when you met with trouble at the blood donation drive. I'd give an arm and leg to turn back time and ensure i was with you during that point of time.

2) I care for you as much as i love my football...and that is a lot cause' u know i'm a freaking big football fan. Care and concern through words that come out of my mouth may either be misplaced or mis-interpreted at times but that doesn't shy away from the entire dept of care,concern and love i have for you. Yes it may be pussy-ish and wrong to blog about it here....but if it's 1 place i can let fly after missing a chance to say it, it will be here...The love i have for you has always been burning here, grows with fond everyday through absence of meeting and is hanging in there...


I'm just drained and lost...the next few days are crucial...

Here's a song that SOMEHOW explains how i feel..