well, looks like i'm backtracking on my promise again...i haven't been updating regularly YET AGAIN....to tell you the truth, i'm feeling f*cked up, inside, about this blog right now, simply coz i can't really decide what to do..

i mean, i really do love writing personal views, whether is it about my daily life or football, my big love.....but then again, i don't like making false/empty promises, and if i cant regularly update my blog, then what use is it for the existence?

haha...if you think this form of thinking is weird, wait till u check out my thinking for relationships, it'll kick Zhen Qing aka A Kindered Spirit off the "Most Opera-tic drama"...hahah =x...

but well...like the title said...finally found a song to describe my life right now...and it's called "Lay Your Hands" by Simon Webbe, formerely of Blue fame...the song is pretty much about struggling in life and requiring smone to rely on....here're the lyrics...

Do what you do, what you say, what you feel
Do what you do, let your hands that can heal
Do what you do what you say what you feel
Do what you do, let your hands that can heal

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..

'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Come and lay your hands on me.




so with that said, i've always been, still am, and will forever be thankful i have Ser to rely on when i'm feeling down and out...

now if only i'll stop thinking of long-term relationship...or wait...i shldn't right?i mean..i was looking for a GF who cld go all the way..i'm no more sweet 13, or any age that'll qualify you for sec sch..and the time for me to fool around, if there even was 1 for me, has now passed....i'm looking for smone who i can be sure will be here for a long time, forever even.....if i was jus finding a fling right now..i'd have scaled further alr...but i'm not...i'm here for the long run, jus like Michael Owen will be for Newcastle hopefully....hee(sorry...have to take a dig at the people who criticized Owen's decision to move to Newcastle....)

so now what? restradegize bah....it's the only way to survive..don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy being with Ser right now....but marriage is definetly not on the cards for the future now...crazy idea it is...so we'll see how ba...

hang on..i hear a question from the back..."What if things doesn't change in the next few years?" you ask.....hmmm good question...i'm not sure myself....theoretically i wldn't be happy if the girl doesn't share the same vision as me....i'm crazy i gotta admit, i cant predict the future..but i can damn hell hope how my future appears...so if things doesn't change?hmm....change of direction is possible, but ONLY WHEN things are not what they seem to be anymore, and i have to be sure of it!!...otherwise...we'll see..we'll see...we cant predict the future can we?


and oh yeah...England won old rivals Argentina (again) 3-2, with Michael Owen (yes, the cute former Pool n Real Madrid striker yet again) scoring 2 in the last 6 minutes of the game to bring England right through the gates of Hell, from being 2-1 down to leading 3-2 with merely 2 minutes to play...

what's even more surprising is that he was practically annonymous throughout the 85mins prior to him scoring the equalizing goal....and that he used his header to score BOTH goals.....like what Martin Tyler said during the West Brom game " that's why frontmen cost more money than anyone else in world football"..tt's why he cost us 16million GBP....top-class striker really...and he's only 25.....plus he's married with a girl as well...

now wait..did i jus say 25 and married?


food for thought definetly......